Loneliness and being alone are totally separate entities. I can be lonesome within a partying crowd, especially when things are really loud, cause then I would much rather flee to find place to be alone; alone with my thoughts and memories of a time when responsibility pertained mostly to how I conducted my business personally, with no need to worry how my actions would affect so many people around me that I can not neglect. Being alone gives me time to reflect and consider without concern what I would like to do next, without concern for everyone I care for now who should be able to find their own way about this world and let me alone sometimes so I can worry about me; I posses the capability more so than they who need constant refreshing to know that care has not gone away. I am lonely only deep in my mind, and shall be until I find my alone time. Smiles to all,I am not ready to crash, I am merely expressing my introspect so that the people I love and care about,know that I have a need most know nothing about!